Friday, November 19, 2004

I won't leave without a word. 

ok. I am now using my brother's computer. Thank goodness Chia Yi helped me with that router... so now here also can access internet. I dunno wad happened to my com, and don have time to figure out anyway. Just cant switch it on!!! ugh... the monitor keep saying no signal no matter how i unplug and replug the wires. sigh. nvm la. I'm a computer idiot mah... cannot blame me.

Anyway. Just wanted to leave a final blog before i leave tomorrow morning. Yeah, i'll be off to China, Beijing and ShangHai for 15 days starting from tomorrow. Flight is 9am... but will be in airport by 6:30am latest latest bah. I will miss all of u guys k... and i'll bring back prezzies!!! (i try la) haha. I'm getting a toy for David, which i promised him, and i'll be looking for some pple's(like my brother) bdae presents. Hmmm... this time gotta miss church camp for this, so sad. I want to go church camp!

So you pple going for church camp, you lucky peeps... sigh, have fun ok? aiya, i'm sure you will. For me? I'll be hounding Hoi Fai for huang cheng tickets all 15 days. haha. just kidding.

And for my dear seniors still having As... jiayou jiayou! Drink more water, rest when u need to... don just mug until sick ar~ It'll be over in 2 weeks at the very very most right? After that you'll be sooooo free and soooo happy le. And we will be the ones facing the horrible evil As next year. ARGH. Help. What did we do to deserve this???

OK. Final goodbye for now... will miss u. Can e-mail me, i'll try 2 check okie. Any emergencies... can call my parents. hahaha.... i dunno if i will still be using the same network in China, or changing to china network, or just using Calling card or wad. Heh. I shall try to have fun... TRY, no guarantees huh... =P *grinz* see ya!
Joyce at 5:36 PM

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

long thought. 

har har. saw this lame photo of Wang Zheng Hao... hwahwa...Hmm... like v long nv see that guy le, wonder where he went? Or maybe i'm juz kinda blind la.

Hmmm... feel a bit better now that i've sub the work to another com. But i still feel bad. Maybe the teacher has brainwashed me over the phone to make me think it's my fault. ya. I noe you guys say its not my fault, but the way u sae it ar... it's like blaming me anyway. urh. not that any of you all will be reading this la, cuz i din tell any of u abt this. But in case. Oh, and our darlink seniors Marcus and Andy will be reading this after battling with the horribly evil A levels.

Snapping outta the relationship warp thingy. I'm gonna just be happy i can sleep with happy dreams. Had a nice dream this morning, one in a LOOOONG time. It wasn a complicated dream, just a dream where i had a long talk with someone i really wish i could have a long talk with. In the dream i had all the time in the world to meet up with pple and eat and chat and just have fun as a group, or individually. So i din wanna wake up until 1pm! And no choice than, cuz i have B.O.D meeting at 2pm. har. In the end i was still early eh! And met WanYi on the bus, cuz she have econs paper in the afternoon.

Today also bought my gifts for the China pple... so last min hor? I bought our college files for them and i bought 3 college pins just in case got pple no prezzies. Sigh. i hope i really can go for my trip in peace and don hafta worry abt stuff in S'pore. It would be awful if my mind stays here and i have to keep calling back to S'pore to settle stuff etc. Just got scolded again from the teacher a few mins ago... sigh... been getting scolding from her the whole entire day. And somemore its HER fault!!!! ugh. it feels terrible to be a student sometime and if the teacher says its your fault, it's your fault!

See, see how i wan to look forward to my trip also cannot? You know on my date of departure i still have to settle stuff with my B.O.D member who is meeting me at the departure hall that morning sixthirty? Now i understand what Nuriahtu, my senior told me abt my job. To pple who think the 12 of us are very free... har har har. Life is so hectic in the B.O.D u cant breathe. And when you finally can... you forgot how to. That's how it is. Life is seriously depressing lately. And i know what Andy mean by you need frenz in the B.O.D to survive. hah. i still don't you see... which is why i'm not exactly surviving.

I miss everybody. I miss talking long hours to pple on the phone where i can just pour out all my troubles. I don have that kinda time nowadays, and neither do anybody else anyway. And those that do, they just cant be bothered and don care for idle chat. These pple only bother when your house burn down or something. Unless there is something impt, no point wasting time talking is the policy for these lovely frenz of mine. haha,电话粥. Now i don have time to cook myself 粥 of any kind lor.

Everyone is so busy. Pple just rush past you and you can sometimes feel the wind from the speed they are moving at. When you get lost, you can't ask for directions because no one will stop for your sake. Their faces are a blur, and forget about admiring the finer things in life, you cant even get the big picture right. You just move and move and move and move. and move. Your focus shifts. Your priorities are lost since everything seems so impt! But of cuz they are not.. only you have no time to realise that.

Sigh. Now i know why i enjoyed the dream this morning so much. Because i could talk properly to someone. We were in a nice comfy room where we could talk about everything under the sun. It was someone i trust the most among all my friends, thus i could just tell the person EVERYTHING. It feels good to have someone to share with. And the best part was, i wasn the one doing all the talking. The person talked too. It was communication at last, no longer 1-way but 2-way.

See how such a simple thing could make me so happy? If only it can happen in real life... nah. that's just a dream, in reality the person wont be so nice as to meet up with me just to talk. The person probably doesn care enuf to do that.

argh. nvm. i'm sinking back into the depressed mood i had almost gotten myself out of. can the person ever make my dream come true and cheer me up?
Joyce at 11:24 PM

别人的天长地久 

最近怪怪的。。。

不知曾几何时羡慕起恋爱中的那些小情侣
弄不清楚为什么自己会想和那些有人牵手的女生一样
有人诉苦
有人保护
天天都能烦着一个要你烦他的人

haha.好笨。
又在梦想着fairytale 的情节。
童话故事中的这些情节并非不可能
只是没有可能发生在那一点也不象公主的我
因为这是永远只能属于别人的天长地久。

I have no idea when i started to envy the loving couples
who only has eyes for each other
Having someone to hold your hand
Someone to cry to in times when you feel lost
Just someone to protect you whatever happens
and tell you never to worry, not to fear.

How stupid can i get
dreaming about fairytale endings again?
It isn that such stories are impossible
It's just that such magic only descends on princesses.
And this will forever only remain someone else's happily ever after.

P.S hah.forgive me for lousy language.I'm not exactly in a 诗情画意 mood u c.



Joyce at 10:19 PM

lost. 

i feel so lost now.
Why muz something like that happen a few days before my departure?
How can i leave with peace now, worrying abt stuff like that in Singapore.
I feel so lost, so confused and quite angry.

Just becoz u are the teacher doesn mean u are always right.

忍了whole meeting and 泪,终于再也忍不住了。

我真的好希望有个人能在着种时候陪着我。
我真的很渴望有个人真的在乎。
可惜,也许这个人永远都不会出现。
Joyce at 9:38 PM

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

我要的。。。 

我要有人陪
我要有人疼
我要有人关心
我要有人说他在乎

但我没人陪
我也没人疼
我不多人关心
也从没人说过他在乎

我越来越觉得自己是透明的。
我开始厌倦一个人单独的生活。




Joyce at 2:14 PM

首首勾起回忆的旋律 

你快乐所以我快乐
你眉头开了,所以我笑了,你眼睛红了,我的天灰了,
啊~~天晓得~`既然说,你快乐于是我快乐,玫瑰都开了,我还想怎么呢?
求之不得,求不得,天造地设一样的难得~~喜怒和哀乐,由我来重蹈你覆辙。
你头发湿了,所以我热了, 你觉得累了,所以我睡了
啦~~拉啦啦啦~~~不管为什么,心安理得,天晓得,既然说,你快乐于是我快乐,喜怒和哀乐,由我来重蹈你覆辙!

我知道你很难过 - 蔡依林
作词:胡如虹作曲:叶良俊

我知道你很难过爱一个人需要缘份你何苦让自己越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真去碰触不安的灵魂每一天只能痴痴的等
爱一个人别太认真你受伤的眼神令人心疼
没有一个人非要另一个人才能过一生你又何苦逼自己面对伤痕
我知道你很难过感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过昨天是恋人今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛要怎么解脱多情的人注定伤的比较久
爱若变成了刺思念也成了痴也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

有心人有情人 - 蔡淳佳
有心人有情人
每个城市每条街
相聚离别
那个你掏心的人
算不算有缘
爱过就无怨无悔
悲伤却也珍贵
想恋一吃不对
难分辨
看身边的朋友们
为情狂喜狂悲
爱曾暖得像温泉
也蒸发冷却
当了解变成无解
最后只留心结
情人心里有火焰
有错觉
你说你
爱得真
陷得深
最后只有孤单是永恒
每当夜一深
泪一吞
往事历历割的心好疼
你问我
爱几次
伤几分
才有看准幸福的可能
只怪世间寸少有心人
却有太多有情人

心太软

#你总是心太软 心太软
 独自一个人流泪到天亮
 你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
 我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软 心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单 相处太难
不是你的 就别再勉强

夜深了你还不想睡 你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔 算了吧 就这样忘了吧
该放就放 再想也没有用
傻傻等待 他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来

Repeat #

过火 - 张信哲 - 宽容
张信哲--过火
是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受
让你疯让你去放纵
以为你有天会感动
关於流言我装作无动於衷
直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和後悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心
你是否能够要得回
怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞
伤痛我背


Joyce at 1:26 PM

i love Singapore. ya. now i do. 

heh. heh. Shiwei looks so funny and beary cute in his NS uniform... and his rifle, and his fren. hahaha.....

全世界都在恋爱
You are only lonely.
Oh-Yeah
那你说我该怎么办。。。?
You are only lonely.

haha. amusing song. What should i do? i should go home and sleep more. And try to go on patiently waiting.

Aiyah... so sian... Saturday flying le, i don even feel like packing my luggage. Why am i so sian diao about this trip? Cuz no Hui Min? No leh, i got Jaime wad... I also dunno. I just don feel like going. Feel like i'll be freezing and miserable there. And matters got worse when the rest of my good frenz/best frenz will be at church camp somewhere in Malaysia, having church camp fun. And i'll be at 北大 or 复旦 listening to some weird lecture which i don understand and having to write a report on it. Or climbing the great wall of China.

sigh. looks boring even in words.

And cuz i'll be gone for so long, i hope i can go out and play with my frenz before departure. But nobody's really interested. And trying to memorize "细水长流" which we are performing in China. But i keep getting the verses mixed up. It's a great song, nevertheless. But the thing is... i feel as if i'm going overseas with a bunch of strangers though i know i have Jaime and Soon Kiat and now Cai Xiu and Hoi Fai. Haha. Notice how other than Jaime i din mention anyone from TJ? Ya. That's the point. I think. I feel closer to the HC people than i do wif my own sch people. Like when i think of the China Trip, to console myself, i think of them. Like Hoi Fai and that mee rebus and recycling bins. And Cai Xiu and our birthdays, even though we dunno each other well, apart from that ZiHui thingy. And Soon Kiat and his Sun Yan Zi. And Jaime and her piano diploma. I don think of Leonard, Zi Xin or Zhi Yuan or Li Yun. Wen Jie's ok. But we're afterall not close mah. Just the mere tot of Leonard and Zhi Yuan gives me a headache. And how am i to work with Li Yun on our report?

I miss Hoi Fai, Soon Kiat and Cai Xiu. Din mentione Jaime cuz i'll be seeing her in 2 hours time. ugh. i dun wan to go to china...
Joyce at 1:01 PM

Let's talk about... Prom. 

Prom was ok. But for Tuan's sake, it was good.

Stuck with Eunice at the reception area at the start. And i got a start seeing 33/04 all being dressed to kill. I looked like a primary school kid beside them with my obiang black hair and my long white skirt. I looked like some kampong idiot, whilst they did their hair and slabbed on thick make-up with smokey eyeshadow and wore tube cocktail dresses. Everyone was dressed to the nines... except me. Haha. And many had dates with them, wrapping each other in hugs and kisses with their hands permernantly stuck together with super glue. I felt a little uncomfortable with 33/04 frankly, so when i saw Jie Ying, i went to look for her and stuck with 34/04 the rest of the night. We were all LEP people afterall, closer too.

I din waste money. I think i drank $35 bucks worth of coca cola. And the food was not bad. hahaha... but i sat at the table talking to Andrea most of the night. We din dance, cuz when we went down to the dance floor, we would just stand there like goblocks. Face it, i dunno how to dance. The Prom Queen is Esther, our good fren and the prom king was erm... Randall from 09/04, Peng Juay's good fren from the Econs quiz. There were 5 nominees, my cousin was one of them. I actually told myself i wont vote for him. Than i saw the other four nominees. Oh my, forget it, i'll vote for my cousin. One was Randall, undoubtedly the plump king, cute and nice perhaps. The second was guess who... HOUSTON. yes, him. The third was my cousin, forth was this guy that was pretty popular but i 看不爽 cuz he dyed his hair the same colour as the lamps and he had to wear sunglasses indoor. The final one was some guy the emcees cant even remember the name of. He's just the kinda quiet, nerdy, transparent kinda guy. But yea, Randall was prom king. good for him. But he made our table laugh so hard since it is pretty unbelievable that he is Prom King. Hahaha. Than prom king and queen had to lead the first slow dance. It was pretty funny because after 2 min, Esther let go and started dancing with another guy while our happy prom king leans against the wall alone. For the rest of the night.

Slow dance sessions were boring for us, but the best part of the night for the couples. In fact, slow dance had more people on the dance floor than fast dance! The couples were like holding each other so tightly, whispering into each other's ears and what not. It was positively nauseating. But it got pretty funny when the DJ changed the music to fast music later, but the couples still INSISTED on slow dancing... Like half an hour after the slow dance, they still slow dancing.... held so closely together we wonder if they can breathe. As the people in the ballroom lessened, our very own TJC couples loosened up. It was weird sitting at the table and watching our famous couple HER on HIM's lap and they were happily kissing away... errrrrrrrrrrr. Then Chirag or something came to ask Xin Ru to dance. Than he tried to make me and Andrea encourage Xin Ru. So he said, "What kind of friends are you?" And we replied, "exactly, What kind of friend are we if we tell her to dance with you?" Haha, than we talked a bit and he realised my cousin is Ivan. He said "Ivan rocks, so you must rock too! Wanna dance??#" At that very moment another council guy walked over to talk to him and we laughed "there, your dance partner!" to which he said he'll rather dance with a glass of ice water than dance with him. And we laughed. haha... in the end Xin Ru did go and dance with that guy la. Please lor, he just wanted to get a girl to dance with him, he din even care who. Than me and Andrea sat there laughing and talking... A girl from 33/04 was so sad no one asked her to dance, she started tearing (no la, actually i tink it's her contacts or mascara or something) . Heh. Even Houston got 2 girls to dance with him. And you know ERWIN. The carecubs Erwin who is the kind hearted guai guy? Ya, he had a girl in his arms during slow dance and he was groovin away during the fast numbers. OH my goodness. Prom is really where u spot the couples you didn know were couples, and where u see the other side of the guai and the nerdy. And there were bouquets of flowers lying all around, gifts to the girls from the guys. Like there was a pretty sweet scene where Hafiz gave Zi Rui a bouqet of flowers and said something to her, and she let out a gasp before throwing herself into Hafiz' embrace. So sweet. And for the rest of the night, their hands stuck firmly together. How nice.

It's a time where u start realising you're one of the few people unattached, because during the slow dances, you see the people still seated(not many). And you sit there and enjoy talking to your girlfriends! Haha... I'm sure having a date would be fun and all... but spending my prom night with Andrea and Xin Ru was cool too! We had fun spotting the couples and musing "wow... i din know she has a boyfriend!" and "Hey look, who's Jansen's date?" and "Oh, Tiang Lim brought his girlfriend!" and "Want to go down to the dance floor?" where we basically just jump to the music. But the dance floor has this mist/smoke spraying thing that diffused some odd-smelling smoke onto the dance floor blurring your vision and giving me the feeling i am in a pub or something. And i hate smoke, whatever kind it is. So i always end up going back to my seat and watching people. Oh yea, and yesterday Xin Ru told me you could tell who clubs and who doesn when u go look at the people on the dance floor. Haha.... more obvious than obviously, i don't. I never will. Haha. Than yesterday alot of people left halfway to go clubbing. Cuz TJ had more girls than guys, so the probablity of getting asked in pretty low. But in a club, it's a whole different story. I guess getting asked and wadeva has it's attraction, pulling people to pubs and clubs. Er. Good for them. 12 midnight, Dad and Mum came to pick me up... Andrea's dad also came. Xin Ru walked with me down the stairs and bye bye everyone.

Tuan, don't be disappointed. It was ok, really. Cheer up and be happy! Grad nite will be better.
Joyce at 11:26 AM

Saturday, November 13, 2004

P.S与main text是针对不同人。 

拭去了眼泪后
我不知道下一步自己会往哪儿去
方向虽仍未决定
但我知道我不再要你陪在我身边。

开始厌恶幼稚的爱情
那些令人觉得恶心的甜言蜜语
讨厌那些把爱情当儿戏的人
对于那些把爱情商业化的人更是看不起。

因为痛过了,
我害怕受伤害。
我想逃到一个没有感情的地方
一个我不会感觉到爱,
因此没有痛的地方。

一段成熟的恋情难道真的只是一种责任?
对男生而言,难道爱真的与责任画成等号?
我不要一个因为责任而和我继续交往的人。
但我更不要一个充满甜言蜜语,山盟海誓的感情。aka 骗局。

P.S 如果不想理我,请至少通知我,别让我一直处在猜疑的情况中。thanks.

Joyce at 10:53 PM

HwaChongians. TJCians.  

early in the morning, i woke up to catch bus 67 1.5hrs before the meeting. The bus trip lasted that long and abt near the end i almost tot i wouldn be able to stand up anymore. Finally saw the lovely words "Hwa Chong Junior College" and that indicated the end of my bus trip. So i stumbled off the bus. literally. In the next bus that came by, i saw a HC guy i recognize cuz he from LEP. He recognize me too... and so we walked a while into the school, past the squash courts, den i asked him where the LEP room is, he pointed vaguely in a direction and told me he wants to go eat in the canteen and ask me just go ask around myself. I completely... diaoz and at that moment in time, HC LEP's reputation somehow fell down the drain. For only that moment la. After looking lost for 10min+ with pple staring at me curiously but nobody helping... a HC LEP girl walked past and retraced her steps and ask me if i'm lost. haha. help at last. Now that i think of it... that girl looks pretty familiar. Who is she huh?

Then yesterday half way thru the meeting was quite down cuz of some personal stuff in the morning. Then Jaime also dunno how to cheer me up. So i just sian sian sat there beside Kang Hao listening to him crap throughout the meeting. Turns out we forgot to bring passport that day, so haf to go back college to hand in passport on Tues. At the end of meeting, some HC girl showed us the HC mass dance we're supposed to perform in China. HC mass dance is v easy! Like seriously lor... budden quite plain la, on the other hand. It's quite unlike TJ mass dances which are all so complicated. HC mass dance 10min can learn finish. TJ mass dance... well, until now i only learnt 1, and i somehow still cant do it too well. The other mass dances are where i just fumble through. Oh. And i realised Cai Xiu's bdae is one day away from me! But she one year older la.

Then i so din feel like taking 67 back home again. But there was no one to go out w, plus Wei Min going out, cant visit David. So i stood outside HC LEP room waiting for Jaime, debating where to go... what to do.... Ended up walking over to Coronation Plaza (Coro) to find Soon Kiat, Cai Xiu, Hoi Fai and i think is JiaXin, also 04S61 de? Anyway, was pretty fun la, talking to them and laughing along. Then i keep laughin at Hoi Fai cuz at our seat, or rather, his seat, whenever he look up he'll be staring straight at the big picture of Mee Rebus on the menu. And its like super near. Was pretty funny whenever the group suddenly run of out things to talk abt, den everyone just turn to look at the menu, while Hoi fai gets to stare at the Mee Rebus. Then we went back to HC together, but realise it was raining. The moment we realised, Soon Kiat held on to this snowman mannequin and looked so stunned i had to ask him "er... u ok?" Ran in the rain over to the bus stop and took a bus back to HC where Jaime took me on a mini tour of HC, and then we sat down at the canteen with some HC LEP seniors which were all super nice and crappy and funny (might be due to the fact that they are waiting t enter exam hall for their LEP 'S' paper that afternoon). Met Ms Shereen Ng frm TJC! I tink she went to HC to mark papers and she looked so suprised to see our green green uniform so far away from our 绿园 she came to talk to us and asked us the reason why we were sitting so casually in HC's, of all places, canteen. hahaha....

We waited for about 1hr 45min for Soon Kiat till cannot stand. We wanted to get out but the side gate was locked, so had to exit thru TCH gate. decided to head to town and meet Soon Kiat there(Waited for him cuz he having 黄城职委 meeting i tink.So cool, Hoi Fai is 票务,which means i can hound him for tickets for 黄城 next yr during our 15 days in China. Mwahaha... =P) Den at town was quite fun, we walk walk here, eat here eat there. Basically did nothing but loittered arnd town. Met Hoi Fai by a recycle bin right outside Heeren. Then Soon Kiat said Hoi Fai does things like that, he would bring out used paper from home to dump them in recycle bins so they can be recycled. Such a LEO club kinda guy right?? haha... den i realise he really ex-interact club member. haha. Bidding goodbye to Hoi Fai who knows exactly what bus to take to where(might have to do with the fact that he lives in Tampines and goes to HC, thus travelling ALOT in his life, or the fact that he oftends loitters around the island like we were doing that afternoon), we went to PS(with Hoi Fai's help) Yamaha and that was very fun too. The day ended with us abandoning Jaime (No la. who ask her take NEL?) and travelling back home on our trusty east-west line. We were both sighing, and saying how we don really wanna go to China... and somehow we started talking abt Singapore Idol and Daphne's lousy rendition of Penny's "我要的爱".

Hah. was fun. today my B.O.D had a bod outing to... Blood Bank to donate blood. hah. as usual, i meet them AFTER that cuz i dun and probably never will meet the weight requirement. ha. ha. ha. In the evening after dinner went into 创作 mode and kept staring into space and walking behind everybody else alone so as to brainstorm for 创作。But so far... nothing. Inspiration finish liaoz. Maybe i shall write abt Hoi Fai's mee rebus staring incident in the end if i cant think of anything else.

But overall. still quite disturbed and depressed lately cuz of the same thing that got we so sad yesterday morning. ugh. goodnight everybody. Year 2s, jiayou k... and the guys, go cut ur hair plz... don get caught during papers again. *grinz*
Joyce at 9:18 PM

Friday, November 12, 2004

I'm going to australia? 

ok. so now i'm going to Australia?
Fine. wadeva.

But i'm getting sick of being told what to do.
I'm getting sick and tired of being trapped here.
Of having the lack of freedom.
I dislike the fact that my opinion does not matter. at all.

Don get me wrong, my parents are not the ones restricting my life the most. I am.

I am a stuffy, boring stick-in-the-mud. I am the one depriving myself of freedom. I cannot go wild, i cannot do this, cannot do that. Till now than i realise i'm not as normal as i think i am. It's not normal to do the things i do, or rather NOT do.

What is wrong with me? I don't even make sense to myself sometimes. Like,why do i feel like i have 100 parents insetad of 2? Like i have to answer to them, and i get lectured by THEM for the things i do. UGH. And i can't complain?????

FYI, i DO NOT WANT to go to Australia.
I want to stay at home and sleep.

I feel like hiding in a cave right now and never have to come out. I don even feel like going back to church ever.

nvm. i noe i don make any sense. It might only make sense to... say... Chia Yi. sigh. no, maybe he won't get it too. argh, i don care. i'm going to bed.

btw. in case u are wondering wad in the world i am doing at this time of the night/day, i'm trying to find info on China, becoz i have a meeting at HC tomorrow morning and i just realise i have to do a presentation, plus answer a worksheet of qns on lovely china.

and i STILL haf no idea wad to say/do for my presentation. But i finished my worksheet. Jaime, you may see me die in front of the HC,TJ, NY LEP scholars tomorrow.
Joyce at 1:39 AM

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

邂逅 

邂逅just means meet right?
Haha...

Anyway, i met Des yesterday. We got off 67 at the same time, but i din see him till he went 比大声还大声 "hey!" Haha... he's never said ANYTHING to us since 绿园 ended, so when i turned my head, i din actually expect him. Anyway we crossed the road together and when we got to the other side, we asked the same qn at the same time "你住哪里?" Then i pointed left and he pointed right at the same time. Haha... than we both started laughing. Than he told me his block no. and that he went to sch to study etc... haha. The Mr dao actually spoke more than twenty words to me. hahahahaha....

Than today met Wan Yang at the bus interchange while waiting for 38. Wan Yang is not so suprising, cuz i found out quite some time ago me and Wan Yang keep seeing each other all over the place like all the time. kinda weird, but when term was on, i see him almost everyday, and every morning. Our timing for everything seems similar. Dunno why also. Anyway, we saw each other from quite far, like he was at the coffee shop opposite the cinema and i was at the bus queue for 38. But we spotted each other immediately, (nothing special la, its cuz of our unique coloured uniform... super easy to spot. even from far) so we waved. Than later we got on the bus together and talked all the way to school. But he so weird, sat down on the seat behind me so i had to turn to talk to him and he had to lean forward. hahah. Than when we got off the bus together, i asked him wad combi he actually takes... and he said LIT!!! He takes LIT! I din noe...! He is cross combi, but he takes lit. And he also just found out than that my batch cross combi got no lit.. only the 比pure还 pure arts classes(us and 33/04) take lit... somemore only 2 classes. Than i told him abt my combi prob (something wrong with my combi... our only senior left for poly, my batch 6-2 le...but dats another story.). Haha, he's a nice guy, like when we walk to the entrance of school, he saw a car coming (apparently i didn. I NEVER see any cars. Go ask 姐。Dunno how many times almost get knocked down by a car)and he stuck out his hand to push me aside before hopping onto the side too. haha.

Last person i met was... Jodi. Haha... sat down with her and tried to help her with her script while waiting to see Mrs Lam. But i am a lousy help u see, so Jodi's ideas were all her own. And geez, she is GOOD 这样... she just thinks of an idea, ask me wad i think of it, and acts it out on the spot to illustrate her point. She is WOW罢了。Even when the idea sounded normal, under her illustration came to life and became a great idea. hahaha... no wonder she is MinDan's 接班人. She really deserves to be the Chairperson of CCC. And she's a great fren and super nice person. She's always so friendly to me, and so fun to be wif. =) Ok la. sian diaoz. tomorrow got to oversee the DSC com meeting. nvm... when i flee to China i will be taking my break from all these. Not that i am complaining... =P


Joyce at 11:03 PM

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无话可说。
Joyce at 10:26 PM

Saturday, November 06, 2004

insensitivity. 

Why are some people just so insensitive?

Joyce at 10:52 PM

External CIP - ONC & YF 

Old Newspaper Collection today. Din noe Jaime, Li Si and Chen Si weren't going le, so i happily went to sign up last minute when Cai lin already took down the piece of paper. And in the end i was the only one la. Wadz new? Siu Fen apparently signed up, but din turn up. As i expected. So ya, the pt is... i was alone. I had Jia Fen and Yuan Ping in my grp la (My 4 yrs HCL classmates) but not close mah. But i worried too much. I had a sense of Deja Vu when everyone in my grp knows me, but i dunno most of them. It's always like that. But as i said, it's easier for the 100+++ members to know the 12 Board of Directors members than it is for us to know them all. RITE?

WE had a couple in our grp, was sweet at first, then got pretty irritating later. The girl's from Sports Class... the guy's from JiaFen's class, ex-CCHS one. But my grp was a nice bunch la. And this other Ngee Ann girl, Lisa teamed up with me. She's really quite nice and cute. =) We took 1/2 hr to try and find our FIRST block. haha... 842E i tink. We walked in circles for like forever... and walking in those blue and yellow blocks of flats, i was distinctly reminded of Pai Sheng (Sorry abt the spelling... is it correct?). Remember he stays nearby. Haha. turns out he wasn home. Aww... well, but no suprise. My life has always been like that mah... things never go the way i hope/expect/want all along anyway. so OH WELL.

Midway thru Shu Yi msged me calling for help. So i tried to get help for her... but apparently everyone's busy. So i left halfway the collection and drag my totally drained self to church (hey, no joke ok, me and Lisa did 1 whole block of flats[adding all the storeys we did] carrying all those papers!) Look at me, do i look like someone strong? haha. but it was an interesting experience, afterall the other time Newspaper Collection i was college HQ. But that time was more tired... cuz ended up doing MUCH MORE than 1 block of flats at the recycling place+ all the unloading of lorries+ running away from that TJC resident cat that keep irritating me.

But i was tired enuf anyway... and i sat down and tried to help Shu Yi... and geez, without page maker its so hard. And Xiaomei Laoshi had went for a wedding, so no help there... kinda sad, but we managed in the end, struggling.... with alot of uncle Wah Tuck's help. YF ended super late today cuz was grp prayer... my grp prayed for abt 1/2 hr after YF ended?

姐 said she'll TRY and wait for me when i asked her if she could... haha, and in the end she did. She always like that wan. She really cares, but just doesn 挂在嘴边. On the way home, she was saying she will never understand wad style is abt... and she told me the new engineering girls are very very pretty, unlike the old batch (her batch). Not as pretty as the business-admin or arts girls, but still quite pretty le, she said. Even XiaoMei laoshi kinda laughed at her saying she muz be super rich, saving her money from clothes. haha... actually, you know wad? I don care if 姐's bag and shoes don match, i don care that she tinks jeans matches everything (now my point is it doesn!) , i also don care that she will never understand wad style or shopping or making up is... she's one of the sweetest nicest person i've met. The best 姐。And she always will be, whether she gets it abt style or not.

Geez. The phone. wait.

OUCH! I just rushed out to answer the phone and i pulled my ear stud and OUCH.
just FYI, the phonecall was from 浩昌。
Joyce at 9:13 PM

Friday, November 05, 2004

Don't miss the point. OP's over. 

OP is finally over. I'm totally happy abt it. I did a bad job, but i wont think abt it anymore. The thing was, Ms Joyce Teo was super nice to me. She smiled at me all the time and she din smile at anyone else. And she smiled this super happy smile when she called my name for Q&A. Than she asked a qn i dunno how 2 answer. It was something i did NO research on and dunno AT ALL.no clue. so... i crapped. And i did a lousy job crapping. I am a goner. I sat down and crumpled my face. AW Geez. Gone. Just like that... i tot my presentation was alright and now i have to do this to ruin my chances of a good mark. GONE.

Aiya. wadeva. It's over. That's the point.

Went to Pizza Hut with Kai Leng, Xin Ru, Laura and Yvonne after OP to eat lunch... and we ate and ate and ate... a stuffed crust pizza + 1 regular pizza + 1 Hut's platter + soup + drinks. Than me and Xin Ru went to TM to watch movie, Princess Diaries 2, it was a fun movie, total fairy tale and very very cute. Xin Ru liked it quite a lot. I loved it. I really really need fairy tales in my life. Next we went to eat some snacks at Orange Julius, followed by a visit to Challenger and This Fashion. I also saw this boutique at TM with some nice clothes for Prom. Saw a very nice skirt and top and when i tried it on, i think i look like some dancer/ballerina. I dunno whether that's good or bad, so i din buy. but prob will end up buying if i don come across something nicer. The outfit gave me that kinda sweet girly look lo. Wadz new rite? I always portray the SAME image, even in my sch U.

The visit to Challenger was fun, we were looking thru all the PC games and discussing how we don't understand why guys like games like CS where u turn and turn and make yourself giddy. Plus, you kill pple. Then we saw this "interesting" looking game called "红楼梦", which later we realised was actually "红楼续梦". It's abt the 红楼梦 cast in an afterlife... like after 贾宝玉 转世. Quite funny... Maybe shld include that game into LEP syllabus. haha...

So that's how we wasted an entire day, at Tampines Interchange. Walking around. But we talked a lot la, and i told Xin Ru all abt my NY days. Haha. But that's another story. So long... OP's over. that's all that matters now.
Joyce at 10:34 PM

Monday, November 01, 2004

OP. OoPz. 

Woke up from a nightmare abt PW OP. Haha. i was stuttering because i just couldn get the words to make sense...also, i decided to tear up the script in my hand cuz i kept looking at it and not at the audience.

Than i woke up.

OH NO. David.

So i was late in visiting David. And he waited on whole morning for me. haha. he's really grown up... we were eating lunch together, when he said he missed 盈姐姐, and 嘉颖哥哥, and 齐齐姐姐,and 娜娜姐姐,and Polo哥哥,and Kenny哥哥,and 浩哥哥 etc... so cute!!

argh. quite tired now. was thinking alot on my way to david's place. Mrs Lim spent so much time on instilling POSITIVE THINKING in us TJCians. Apparently it didn work on me. sigh. church camp... Realised all the uni pple cant go either cuz they all got exams. But still got alot pple going, pple nearer my age. But this time i cant go... geez, what's up with me huh? aiyah. forget it, i dunno how to explain. Just feel so 没把握 abt the China Trip, and i'm like giving up a church camp for it. It's like China Trip i dun even noe for sure i'll have fun... or maybe i'll be too cold to be enjoying myself. hah. and watching the snow fall and shivering, shivering in the cold. alone.

i'm shivering with fear at the very tot of it. and i miss pple.
Joyce at 8:38 PM

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